What is this blog?!?

This blog will be my diary for the next 365 days. I want to share a variety of things, including:

– recipes for healthy yet tasty food (I am an expert on tasty things, but the healthy part will be a challenge)

– workouts for people at any level of fitness

– stories of inspirational women who are teaching me to focus less on the image in the mirror

– most importantly, the truth about being healthy. It’s not glamorous and shiny, and I don’t expect it to be easy. This site is titled “Never -Ending Struggle Bus” for a reason. It’s going to be dirty and painful and I won’t be able to eat pepperoni pizza or an Italian hoagie for a year, which I am just realizing. But I’m going to do it, and I’m not going to make it sound like any more fun than it is.

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I hate saying, ‘I like exercising.’ I want to punch people who say that in the face.

– Jennifer Lawrence


Let’s Be Real

What do I really want here? I can preach all day about loving myself and being spiritually balanced, but in the end, I am about 40 pounds overweight. And I don’t want to be anymore. I wear a size 10, though I usually overshoot because I don’t like clothes that cling to me and show how large I actually am. I want to be confident enough to wear what I want and look how I want. That doesn’t mean I want to be a size 0 or 100 pounds. That’s unhealthy and no better than what I am now, in my opinion. I want to be fit. I want to look and feel healthy. I want some muscle, abs would be nice.

I want to feel strong. I don’t have a goal weight or goal size in mind. Just a goal feeling. I’ll know it when I get there.


Welcome to the Struggle Bus!

For those of you who are unaware:


Disclaimer: I am in no way affiliated with the aforementioned website or University of Pennsylvania or the brilliant people who decided to animate my lifelong condition. I just find it inspiring.

Everyone has a lifelong struggle. What is mine? As it turns out, mine is my body. I’ve been battling my body and self-image for as long as I can remember. I’ve cursed everything from food to genetics to exercise. But finally I’m going to do something proactive about it.

Please visit About Me and About This Project to learn more about my yearlong quest to finally get off this struggle bus. And feel free to add comments and share in the adventure!